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Wednesday, October 10, 2012
InsyaAllah... Been reading Angel Wears Gucci and Tarbiyah Dzatiyah lately. A lot of things can be learnt by reading these two blogs. First of all, I learnt more and more about Islam itself, and I become even more excited and enthusiastic in wanting to learn more of Islam. InsyaAllah, in order for me to change, or for anyone to change, one must change their intention not for Duniawi, but for Ukhrawi. Alhamdulillah, I am given this nur aka hidayah or in simple English, this light to brighten up my darken life. Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah, the ar-Rahman and ar-Rahim. When we talk about intentions, only one thing that comes into my mind : Hadith 1 in the Hadith 40, where it talks about our intentions. "Verily, deeds are only with intentions. Indeed, every person will get rewarded only for what they intended. Therefore, whoever emigrated for worldly reasons or for a woman, then his emigration is for what he has emigrated to." [Sahih Bukhari, Book 1, Number 1] It clearly talks about our intentions. What I know from this hadith is about a guy (whom I can't remember the name) during the eras of Rasulullah saw. At the time where Rasulullah wanted to Migrate from Makkah to Madinah, the guy's intention was to marry a lady in Makkah. The lady's condition for the guy was that he join Rasulullah to migrate from Makkah to Madinah. So, his intention to join Rasulullah was only merely to marry the lady, and alhamdulillah, he got what he wanted. From the story, it is to say that, we will be rewarded based on our intentions. If we do something, like for example, helping a lecturer with his books, and hoping that we will get a reward, then insyaAllah, we will be rewarded. But, wouldn't it be better if our intentions are for Allah swt? Wouldn't it be better to change our motives and intentions from only making Duniawi as its priority, to Ukhrawi as our priority? For verily, Jannah is for eternity, insyaAllah. As a student (which includes moi), our intentions are usually because we want to achieve our dreams and some of us may be studying because of their parents, and insyaAllah, with enough motivation and will and also work, we will get what we wanted ie to achieve our dreams together in making our parents proud, but actually, have it ever occurred in our minds to change our intentions in studying now for the sake of Islam and Allah? As for me, (insyaAllah, I will try and not become 'riak' in this post) I started changing my intentions in taking counselling ever since I lived with kakak for 3 months (or so) in Australia (alhamdulillah). At first, before stepping into the land of Kangaroos, my intentions in taking Counselling (actually it was psychology) was because I wanted to become a psychologist and to change others perspectives of me and to make people understand and believe that I am no longer what I was. But after being with kakak for a few months and experience what she experienced there, it actually opened my eyes that my intentions are just merely selfish intentions. Why think only me, when I could be thinking about my brothers and sisters of Islam globally? During my stay in Australia, what I experienced was different from what we feel in Malaysia, for Malaysia is an (somehow) Islamic country and Australia is not. The first expression I gave the first time I stepped into the land of Kangaroos was Subhanallah, how beautiful the place is. Gold Coast, Newcastle, Sydney, Brisbane, Melbourne... Everything there is just beautiful. Now, back to the topic. At first, I thought people in Australia was not supportive towards Muslims, but I was clearly wrong. A majority of people there respects us Muslims and can still live in harmony (though I've met a few people who still thinks Muslims are terrorists, astaghfirullahalazim), just like in Malaysia. But what made me love Australia more than my own homeland was the fact that the chance in committing oneself in dakwah is more challenging and more prevalent than in Malaysia. It melted my hard and ignorant heart about Islam ; the beauty of Islam and the fighting spirits of Muslims prevailed at that time. To think back, it brought me back to tears. What I had gained in Australia was what opened my eyes and heart and made me realize the times of jahiliyah I had spent over the years and at that very moment, I wanted to change, and become a better Muslimah, insyaAllah. Okay. Back to intentions. After my stay in Australia, I began to change my intentions in taking counselling or psychology. At first because I want to change others perspectives of me and to become a psychologist (which insyaAllah I will strive for these too), but now, I want to change my intentions. Maybe people think that I am not someone big enough to make a change, but in the Quran has said (forgive me if I am wrong), which not entirely the exact words of the Quran, but it said "..Share about Islam, even by one word..." Allahu a'lam, I can't remember if it's a hadith or a sentence in the Quran, but that I will keep grasping and hold firm in my heart. InsyaAllah. I will become a psychologist, not just because I enjoy studying about people, no. InsyaAllah, one day, I'll become a psychologist to study people's mind at the same time to share about Islam to people. To try and change their perspectives of Islam. To engage themselves in Tarbiyyah. To make them understand that Islam is the way of life. To make them realized that the Quran is Allah's love letter for us. To make people start changing themselves not only for the better, but going the right way. I want people to feel what I had felt in my 3 months stay in Australia. I want people to feel the beauty of Tarbiyyah and Hidayah. I want people to feel unconditioned love towards one another because Muslims are brother and sisters without bond. We are bonded by our love of Islam, and Islam itself is beauty. I want people to feel their hearts melt towards the wonders that Allah has given us. I want them to shed tears for fear of Allah, and for Rasulullah's unconditioned love for us. I want people to take Islam as their way of life and do it with strong intentions because of their love of Allah and Rasulullah, and wishes not to disappoint and upset them. Subhanallah, Allahuakbar. Words can't even describe my will and spirit in committing myself in such a big work, but I want to do it. I know I can do it. I want to die while committing myself in dakwah. I want to live down my past sins and make a better life by fully engaging myself in Islam. Subhanallah. I don't want to feel or want to become close to 'Riak' or anything vile, but I just want to change for Allah. I want to love because of Allah. I want to do everything because of Allah, and with every change, there will always be hardship. But insyaAllah, I know for certain, Allah is always with me ; with us. Allahuakbar. Pray for everyone. Before changing others, we need to change ourself. Assalamualaikum and lailatul saidah, ma'assalamah wa ilalliqa'. :) 12:16 AM
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Madza ya'ni My life is based on the phrases stated in the Quran, where Allah has told us : 51:56 "And [tell them that] I have not created the invisible beings and men to any end other than that they may [know and] worship Me." and also, 2:30 "Note that occasion, when your Rabb said to the angels: I am going to place a vicegerent on earth. The angels said: "Will You place there one who will make mischief and shed blood while we sing Your praises and glorify Your name?" Allah said: "I know what you know not."" Our purposes of life has been clearly stated in the Quran, So, why do we still to continue live otherwise? Greater people Clearly speaking, these people down here are just wonderful people. Give them a ring-a-ding-ding once in a while! :) Ira (1) Ira (2) Farahin APG (Inche Gabbana) |
