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Thursday, May 3, 2012
Patience... Despite having being accepted into Form 6 in Science stream class, I'd rather wait for UPU or start my studies a little late. :/I've already two offers for (almost) the same course (ie Psychology slash Counselling). And as everyone knows, my heart goes deeply into this course. UNFORTUNATELY, both the offers are from two private colleges. Le sad face much. :(Now I'm waiting for my UPU results which comes out next week, and I'm hoping for the best from it. I wish not to study anything else but this, and my heart aches every time I think of me studying anything else.. But not just simply anything though.. I can imagine myself studying Mathematical Science and or English education and or Linguistics...Patience is always the key, Mar. ----------------- On the other side of my education world, I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed with various kinds of emotions. Sadness is what my heart can't take. It isn't about my "me going to study soon" event, but it's about how deeply wounded our world is. Corruption, violence, crimes, etc.. Isn't it too much?I've been reading news about people going on mass murders, or kids are being too open on SEX and LOVE. What tears me apart when reading the news are news that involves people committing suicide. That, I can't handle to read. I find it rather sad to believe and read and understand the situation of these people who commits such disastrous event. We can't always put the blame on them. Even as a Muslim, suicide can sometimes pops up in mind, whether it is relevant or irrelevant to any events. What we are, are just humans. We are humans. Our minds play the most ridiculous things at times, but truthfully, if you put your heart to God, surely, death is something you wish you wouldn't do in your own hands. I find life to be very precious and beautiful.There may be ups and downs, but that's life. We can't expect to have a life with only the ups. Where's the fun in that, right? Try imagine riding in a roller coaster with the ride only going up.. You wouldn't feel the thrill in the ride, right? And every time it goes up, it goes slow. Didn't realize that, did you? But that's how life is when you relate it to a roller coaster. When the UPS in your life takes toll, it is slow, and you wouldn't understand or believe that anything bad could happen.Let's change it a little. What if the roller coaster only goes down? You would feel scared and scarred for life after the ride is over. (I don't actually mean scarred for life, it's just the way I emphasize certain topics. I exaggerate.) When the ride goes down, it feels like you're hanging on to dear life, and just wants to cry and scream and shout. Isn't it true? But there are some people who feel happy and excited when the ride goes down. That's the kind of people we should be during the DOWNS of our life.Now, when you put both the ups and the downs of the ride, wouldn't that make the ride memorable? Then, that is how life is. To make it feel precious and beautiful, you need to have both the ups and the downs. It may feel like when you're hitting the bottom of your life as something very stressful, but the downs of your life is what makes it precious. We work harder when we're hitting the bottom of our lives.Believe me, in my own experience, handling with teenage depression before wasn't easy. I closed my eyes and heart to the beauty of the world and life, but now, as I grew older, I begin to realize the mistake I did before and why I couldn't find peace and happiness. My soul is with is Islam, and Islam is what I love.People may look at me now as being a show-off and everything. They may even call me a 'PIOUS show-off'. But hey, rather than I get involved in stupid acts like SEX BEFORE MARRIAGES and ILLEGAL TOUCHING OF A MAN AND A WOMAN and other social ills, I'd rather be call PIOUS than being called a slut/whore/hooligan/delinquent.To make a change doesn't take only a day, nor a week. It takes time..And I believe Allah knows best.I am thankful for my life (with its ups and downs). So very thankful. 3:50 PM
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Madza ya'ni My life is based on the phrases stated in the Quran, where Allah has told us : 51:56 "And [tell them that] I have not created the invisible beings and men to any end other than that they may [know and] worship Me." and also, 2:30 "Note that occasion, when your Rabb said to the angels: I am going to place a vicegerent on earth. The angels said: "Will You place there one who will make mischief and shed blood while we sing Your praises and glorify Your name?" Allah said: "I know what you know not."" Our purposes of life has been clearly stated in the Quran, So, why do we still to continue live otherwise? Greater people Clearly speaking, these people down here are just wonderful people. Give them a ring-a-ding-ding once in a while! :) Ira (1) Ira (2) Farahin APG (Inche Gabbana) |
