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Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Commitments and motivation When we talk about commitments, we're talking about responsibilities. And yes, responsibilities is actually a really big word. The word responsibility can be defined as the state of having a duty to deal with something or it can also be defined as the state of being accountable or to blame for something. In this matter, we're going with the first definition. Whereas commitment can be defined as the act of committing or the state of being committed. Another definition for it is, dedication and or application. Now.. What's with me and commitments? To me, being assigned as the treasurer for Unit Ceramah is something new for me, for I had never experienced being one. And another new thing for me is when my class assigned me as the assistant class monitor, which is, again, something new for me. And (if things go as planned) as of yesterday's informal and unplanned meeting with all class monitors and their assistant (and not to forget the head of our semester), I was again assigned as the deputy for our soon-to-be program -- that is, if it is accepted. With lots of commitments, comes with lots of responsibilities. And yes, there are just times where I just feel so down and I feel like I will not cope with all these committees, but alhamdulillah, Allah has given me the strength to still keep going and not giving up, even when hope is just null. It's just that, there are still times where my mind begins to think : Is my effort really worth it? Astaghfirullahalazim.. I shouldn't be questioning my effort, for only Allah knows how my effort really is worth it, and it is not something that I can judge. Now is just the matter that I need to keep my motivation stay strong, and not give up. I just need that boost of motivation. That boost of motivation. Hmph. Fafirru ilallah, Mar! Fafirru ilallah! 7:04 PM
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Moving on. There's only one word that can describe my emotions in these past few days : Envious. What's there to be envious about? Just a few things I feel missing in my life. :') Being envious is never good, especially for someone like me. I am easily tormented by my own feelings, and whenever I become envious of other people, I will eventually blame myself for everything, and lastly, the depressive part of me will emerge itself again, and truthfully, it is the most terrible feeling ever. Eheh. This has nothing to do with my topic. Well, it does actually. It involves me moving on in life. To be even more honest, life was never easy for me. Even at this moment, I am fighting with myself so that I can keep on moving and not fall to the ground again. Though, I must say... I've fallen a few times now, and there are just times where I feel like there's no more point in getting up again.. At that moment, a senior gave me a wonderful set of advices. He gave me the words, clearly, the words that I need. "It's okay. The past is a lesson for you.. Don't be sad... :)" Alhamdulillah, though my heart is in pain, but I know.. Allah is always there. Alhamdulillah, my prayers were answered when Allah gave me a vision about KUIM. Alhamdulillah, studying far from home has taught me lots and lots of things. Alhamdulillah, I had learned the true meaning of friendship. Alhamdulillah, I am no longer who I was before, and I am, insyaAllah, improving myself to become a better Muslimah. :') To move on is never easy. There are obstacles along the way.. Trust me.. I know.. I can embarrassedly say that I used to be a very bad student before at school. A delinquent. A hooligan. A chaos. A disaster. A nightmare. Well, not exactly, but I just like to label myself as so. And to be who I am now was never easy, and is still not easy. Alhamdulillah... What's with this post? Lately, I've been feeling too down and too distant with Allah.. And I need a boost of confidence from myself and from other people right now. Need to motivate myself in order to keep on moving... Alhamdulillah, I have my friends beside me, always there giving me support and a pat in the back. Alhamdulillah, I met with wonderful seniors that always give me advices to keep on moving. Alhamdulillah, I have found the true meaning of life. Alhamdulillah, Allah is always there with me. :) Alhamdulillah.. No other words can I use to explain everything now, except all praises to Allah. Alhamdulillah... :) 5:24 PM
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Madza ya'ni My life is based on the phrases stated in the Quran, where Allah has told us : 51:56 "And [tell them that] I have not created the invisible beings and men to any end other than that they may [know and] worship Me." and also, 2:30 "Note that occasion, when your Rabb said to the angels: I am going to place a vicegerent on earth. The angels said: "Will You place there one who will make mischief and shed blood while we sing Your praises and glorify Your name?" Allah said: "I know what you know not."" Our purposes of life has been clearly stated in the Quran, So, why do we still to continue live otherwise? Greater people Clearly speaking, these people down here are just wonderful people. Give them a ring-a-ding-ding once in a while! :) Ira (1) Ira (2) Farahin APG (Inche Gabbana) |
