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Sunday, December 30, 2012
Change of style.. It would be a waste to own a blog but not post stuff that are useful for readers (in which, I doubt I even have any...) And it would be a complete waste of my time if I make a blog and just post stuff that are not useful and just fill it with npnsense, but!!! This will all change. What I had gained from all these islamic talks, islamic gatherings, had made me think and reflect back to why in rhe first place I even made a blog. Why? A question that has not much of a good answer.. Actually.. Truthfully, I had nevet even thought why either... Now, my style of writing will change, together with changing myself for the better.. I will be a true muslimah and spread the joy and peace that islam holds. What more happiness could I contain myself other than spreading joy and peace? Isn't islam a religion of peace? :) To be honest, I am not proud of what I am now, but what I am proud of myself is that the fact that I am willing to change and accept critism regarding myself. As to that, I, Mardyati, will make a vow to change and not go back astray in the road of jahiliyyah, and try forcing myself back in the roads of ibadah and the roads that Allah pleases. InsyaAllah. Man jadda wajada. :) 8:37 AM
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Aches. Let's get even more emotional today, cause I really want to have a massive breakdown so much right now. :( As to what I had learnt last semester, stress can be defined as feeling strained or pressured. And that is exactly how I feel right now... I couldn't blame anyone more than I could blame myself regarding this matter, since... Well.. Isn't it entirely my fault? Why I should I blame others about my life? Why? It is my life, and all that had happened in my life was based on my own decisions and no one else's. "When you feel all alone in this world, And there's nobody to count your tears. Just remember, no matter where you are... Allah knows.. Allah knows.." That. I will understand.. I will firmly and strongly believe. :') I don't even know and understand the meaning of this post. :'| 1:11 PM
Monday, December 24, 2012
New results and new responsibility. It is now the third week of this new semester, and boy, it really feels long! D: Anyway, regarding my results, there was a slight mistake in it. :) And alhamdulillah, I got a 3.79 instead of a 3.31. :) I will struggle harder for this semester, and I just hope that I won't be too confident now that I know of my real results. :/ And with new results this semester, comes new responsibility as I am now the assistant head monitor for my tutorial class, in which I have absolutely no idea what I'll be doing for this semester -- AT ALL! Zilch knowledge. Should I be sighing? If I was still the old me, I would be, but now, I will not. Praises to Allah, alhamdulillah, I am given a chance to experience something that I had never done or would have thought to be doing for this semester. I am sure that I will learn a lot from what I will go through in this semester, insyaAllah... And not only that kind of responsibility... I am also the treasurer (in which I still wish I wasn't *sad face*) for MU - Unit Ceramah. I had hoped to become the head of protocol but instead some "MISHAPS" had made me become this so-call "handler" for such "incomes" for our coming programs... I guess, Allah is trying to show me something in which I know not... Though it pains and aches me to take this "RESPONSIBILITY" (in which I still think is entirely.... Let's not get into the details...), but I guess I just have no choice... :| Poker face now is intended, cause I just can't let people use me just because I stay silent... To be honest, I am a little stressed out with all these responsibilities along together with having to think about how to manage my time for this semester, but insyaAllah, hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakil... I have Allah by my side, and there is no greater companion than Him... Subhanallah... I hope I can manage to gain such results again for this semester...! :) Ganbatte! Chaiyok! Bittaufiq wannajah! :) PS : Pray for Palestine. My heart and soul goes to them, and because of them, I can move on! (alongside Allah's help and guidance!) :') 11:14 AM
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Semester 2. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah the Almighty and the most Gracious... I am now a semester 2 student. And to be honest, it feels like a dream, and not a reality. It felt like only yesterday that I was a semester 1 student, HECK! It felt like as if yesterday I sat for my SPM exam... Time really flies... And with time, there are changes, may it be good or not... When talking about being in a new semester, the topic in town would be results of the past semester... And alhamdulillah, mine is okay, though it is not what I had hoped for, but a 3.31 is enough. Man jadda wajada. I believe in that saying ; Someone who is serious and persistent, he will succeed. InsyaAllah... My results is what I had earned for, what I had struggled for... Despite having a B for my Counselling subject, it's okay. I guess it was mine to blame.. What is given to us is enough for us, for we know not and Allah knows all.. I believe and stand firm about the fact that everything given to me comes from Allah, and nothing is ever mine.. It is all His. After having felt what it is like to be a student, now I know what there needs to be done in Semester 2 now... InsyaAllah... Everything is for Allah... Bittaufiq wannajah.... 12:54 PM
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Madza ya'ni My life is based on the phrases stated in the Quran, where Allah has told us : 51:56 "And [tell them that] I have not created the invisible beings and men to any end other than that they may [know and] worship Me." and also, 2:30 "Note that occasion, when your Rabb said to the angels: I am going to place a vicegerent on earth. The angels said: "Will You place there one who will make mischief and shed blood while we sing Your praises and glorify Your name?" Allah said: "I know what you know not."" Our purposes of life has been clearly stated in the Quran, So, why do we still to continue live otherwise? Greater people Clearly speaking, these people down here are just wonderful people. Give them a ring-a-ding-ding once in a while! :) Ira (1) Ira (2) Farahin APG (Inche Gabbana) |
